I don't usually use this blog as a journal or a place to jot down my frustrations/feelings, whathaveyou. But I am bummed, and I need to vent about it.
My life is at a complete and utter standstill right now. I am in a perpetual waiting game, waiting for outsiders to decide my life (fate) and it is driving me CRAZY. I'm a take-charge kind of girl, and this "wait and see" bullshit is exactly that. Bullshit.
It doesn't help that my life is currently moving at a snails pace in ALL areas- career, school, love. I am SO frustrated I could punch something, but more likely cry, and there is absolutely NOTHING I can do about it except, you guessed it, wait.
I have several unanswered questions, such as: What do I do while I'm waiting for the world to tell me where I'm going? Why do the shitheads get the good things in life like babies and marriages and great careers? Why do good people like me end up with the short end of the stick all the time?
See where this is going? Pity party for Nay, party of one? I don't like pity parties, and I especially don't like being patronized (which for some reason, most people seem to be doing to me lately) so what IS a smart girl to do?
If you figure it out, let me know. I'm just waiting, you know.
Spinning my wheels,
Nay
Hang in there! I'm pretty certain that we all go through it at one point or another. Until things start to move forword just start doing all those things that you've been saving for a rainy day. Read that unbelievably thick book, catch up on your T.V. shows, start planning a trip (feel free to include me in those plans!), catch up with an old friend...you get the picture. It won't be like this forever. I promise!
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